Are things not falling out as the cards were meant to be played? Is she not as “In love” with me as she said?
(Very long post…)

I know she’s been going through a lot of stress lately with work and life in general, but last night, early this morning has been a real break through with how she feels. On a more serious quip, I’m usually the one that has the stress spats over odd stuff. Tonight was her night and she needed to let it all out! This how it went…

I took my girl to work with plans to pick her up tonight. Simple. I get a call at about 9:20 PM from her asking where I’m at? She was supposed to call to let me know when to leave. So I get dressed quickly and jump on my bike to go get her. Arrive at her job with her waiting :( Anyway on my way to her job I decided I was really in the mood to get a lil tipsy tonight because it has been a while since I have. (I am now, as I try to recollect my thoughts and type) So I pitch my idea of getting a bottle of Bacardi and going home to have some drinks and relax. Well after I pick her up from work she asked to swing by her house… we do. Her sister, Dana, wants to “go do something”. So we brainstorm and think of some sort of activity in this dead town of Ocala. Bowling? Pool? Bowling or Pool? We decide on Bowling.

We head over to the liquor store first because I was determined to get my drink on at some point tonight; then headed over to the bowling alley. As soon as I pulled into the bowling alley parking lot I seemed to of felt this bad vibe. Something was amiss. We, I and Erin, parked the bike while Dana parked her car; headed inside and searched for the counter to pay to play. We sat there maybe 15 minutes before the attendant spoke to us. Frankly, her attitude, at least to me, was totally ass(ish)! Snobby? Bitch? Whatever it was I didn’t like it. She was just very nasty and rude. Unfortunately my dumb-ass took my heated frustration off on Erin for no apparent reason… and do what I do best: walk out, so we we wouldn’t argue or fight. I demanded Dana’s car keys because my helmet and “bottle” was in her car. After grabbing them I stormed out towards the door to get them. At the car I was greeted with my loving girl puzzled with my actions, and I still acted all ass(ish). Wanting to leave; but not really. I still even of myself understand why I can be some damn hardheaded and stubborn. It’s absolutely ridiculous. So after packing all the stuff in the book bag my girl hugs me and asks “is this is how our night is ending?”… I reply with I love you and I’m going home. She made a comment that hurt but can’t blame her, about going to see my X… yea sure okay George. That’ll like never happen; that is not in my intentions ever. I didn’t snap back with something as spiteful as it, just a harsh “no”.

After zooming off from the bowling alley I get past the gas station and realize I need gas badly. U-turn. Head back to the station to fill up my bike. As soon as I pull into the station My girl and Dana are right by side as if they were behind me the whole time. Impossible. I was driving pretty quickly and was gone… how they caught me or even seen me at the gas station was amazing. She said they seen me on 441 headed back towards the bowling alley way. Told her I needed gas. Also that after I had filled up I was heading back to the bowling alley to beg for forgiveness and apologize. Just took a quick short run for gas and steam relief. My heart fluttered when she pulled up in that gas station. I love my girl so much. Okay so after talking, clarifying that my anger was mainly from the bowling alley slut and just got pissy., what to do now? Pool or other bowling alley? Plus Dana started to get all depressed with her current relationship with Joe. Erin did what she does best! Cared and showed concern for her sister. Trying to cheer her up I went and started yelling, in the gas station parking lot, that we’ve been dating this long and she’s been sleeping with her?? I mean every patron at the store must’ve heard me. Erin began to laugh her butt off, while Dana was tripping yelling out she was her sister. Some good Jerry Springer material! After that we all just decided to go to my house and chill and play games or whatnot. I felt the drive home was more enjoyable than cooped up in a bowling or pool hall. There were other young adults having fun, driving quickly, loud music, fun stuff. Dana was jamming to music in her car so she had lightened up. Erin, on the back of the bike with me, was loving the ride as always; just too bad my bike can’t one-up. So we starting heading to my house way out in the forrest…

Arriving home I grab the book-bag out of Dana’s car with the drinks, then head inside. Gave my mom her Pepsi because she had none. Then made two glasses of ice for drinks; Erin didn’t hesitate for a beat. She grab her Sour Apple Smirnoff and poured it into a glass. I made my favorite mix: Coke & Bacardi! It was on like Donkey Kong. Before the drinks were poured Erin was in the bathroom going tinkle. So I joined her to give her company. I could tell something was wrong. She wasn’t happy. So I did what ever man should do for their girl. Comfort and talk. She was upset with how I was acting when we were driving home, Dana would pull up next to us with her music loud and I was bouncing to the music. As if to impress her sister she said. I was like whoa… how could she even think of such a horrible thing? I could or would never even consider it. I’ve got better standards than that. I repeatedly assured her she was thinking totally wrong; also that this fear is from her past with an asshole X of hers. Then she started comparing herself to her sister, talking bad about herself. Erin “Lizzy” Mire is the girl I love, the girl I wish to spend my life with; not her sister!

So as me and Erin drank to calm and relax ourselves, Dana played Xbox. More or less I think Dana was only wanting to see Joe online or something. Anyway I was all about my baby! I just wanted her and me. Spending loving time together. She has been a gift since day one; my eyes laid upon beauty, a prize of love. For me to have even won over her heart is way beyond what I thought possible. This woman is my life… ALWAYS.