I swear it feels like I was just typing up some sort of babble to fill-up my Wordpress database with a post. Though it has already been a full nearly 10 days! I really want to keep daily posts going… my intentions are at least good, right? I’ve thought of posting for future dates… sort of like pre-readiness posts, but I don’t like that plan because it seems faked and non sporadic.

I have no real ground breaking info to spill right now… most recent positive aspect was that I made a 96% on my computer class’s quiz. Aside from he small time quizzes I am blessed with the opportunity to look forward for finals! I’m ready I do believe.

I know what I’d like to talk about… the tensions that have stemmed from online gaming competition. Even I included, because I must be honest with myself, become extremely hostile and vehemently nasty talkative. Is it from that single goal: desire of being the winner? I can vaguely recall younger childhood days when gaming was just simply “fun”! Never the need to impress the world’s leader-boards with some highly insane digits of rank. Then there is this newly adapted achievement system that eggs gamers on to push even harder. Must it all be about who is really the best? What happened to just enjoying the glory of art in the game designs and stories themselves? Naturally I don’t think anyone appreciates losing, but it seems to have gotten significantly out of control within online regards. Racial remarks are spewed out without any remorse, shallow and possible sincere life threats are nastily spoken across the voice chat, and even creative name calling towards elders and children of all ages; there is zero respect for others online. I even seem to lose control frequently to partake in the charades of trash talking. After all is said and done I sit back and think damn… I stoop to some low levels to not hold my integrity at a higher level.

I don’t agree with games, their very self, make people violent, but I am starting to consider that the competition strain within games can make people mad. How can we regenerate that forgotten passion for games that held us all bewildered with joy and fun once again? Appreciating what games offer and not focusing on being #1 is where we all need to start.

Can anyone relate to such moments or turmoil while online? Be honest with yourself, because I hear it all the time online…. don’t play some saint you are not.