“Smile, it is contagious!“

 
Just like a cold, being cheery or positive can rub off on others throughout the day. I said that simple statement to my sweetheart love Erin this morning on the phone while she was at work; then to practice what I preached I too smiled as I carried out my tasks today. Oddly enough if you pay attention you will see your smile catch onto others! Watching the frowns, blank stares, and emotionless states of people’s expressions change to a smile was awesome!

In part, I can give the love of my life a thanks for giving me my positive attitude in life; when I am my lowest she is there to show me the bright side of life! Erin, this is only but one of the reasons I love you so dearly!

So, try it… you may too be positive today!

Well, life has been very well for me and my love! We’ve both keep grinding at work and she is now enrolled into Summer semester. So, something we have been contemplating was purchasing another computer for several reasons…

• Schooling
• Gaming (WoW)
• Her own expensive toy… (justifiable?)

Shortly told, I walk into Bestbuy to possibly buy a printer to replace the crap one I decided on from Wal-Mart, lo and behold, glaring at me like a sweet angel was the brand new iMac 24″ all set-up and being so Macilicious! I nonchalantly inquire if they now sell Apple products. The associate, whom looked like a geek from the year 2020, almost blew me off in the sense that I wasn’t prepared to make such a purchase; little did he know. So, after asking a few questions I asked if they wold match Apple’s education discount on a specific model. As that associate disappeared and I snagged another one, whom seemed much more friendlier, thank you Steve, he confirmed they would match the discount. So, I said, “let’s get it”!

All this took place roughly about 15 minutes before I was scheduled to work. I the new iMac to my job and set it in the back-room. I sent a text message my sweetheart with a curious yet dominate message: “I picked up this amazing surprise for you babe, stop by my job if you are remotely interested…”

Of course being a woman and loving surprises she stopped by. Her facial expression was priceless when I asked her to close her eyes so I can go grab it… I feel moments like this are what build love, and no I don’t mean buying lavish gifts, but the moments of sheer emotion and impulse!

I love you Erin.

I’m sitting here in class awaiting for my final exam to open up at 5:30pm. Tick tock tick tock… this time passing is extremely passing sluggishly and giving me anxiety! I am going to do my best and I hope my sweetheart is hoping the best for me.

So, after living in a shared roommate situation again for just a couple of months Erin and I are back together in our very own REAL apartment! It really sucked being apart from one another for just 2 months… You just really don’t know what you are missing until it’s gone. Snuggling in bed, eating together, watching TV sprawled out on the living room floor…. just spending time with the one you love means a great deal.

I love you, you babe you! Here is to our new apartment… now just to get some furniture :)

I plan on updating the theme of my site here shortly, if time will permit such a task. Although, themes are basically just plug and activate in WordPress I tend to customize it to my liking and skill set. It’s how I learn and tweak code, graphics and other functionality. Ironically, I don’t seem to find more time to just keep the blog’s content flowing, yet, I am devoting time to the overall look.

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What does it really mean to love someone?
I hardly believe it’s the shallow gifts, jewelry, and physical attractions; no, it’s much more intricate than that. Love — is another wonderful emotion that our body experiences. A joyful lastingness that consumes, devours, and clouds our thoughts of any other aspect of life; Love — is passion, dedication, and consideration. It’s the sole meaning of doing the must absurd follies in life just for another human being, all under the title for Love…

To Love another being is humanity, conviction, and realization of life… endure and treasure it.

Love…
Trust….
Emotions……

All have felt like they’ve now been yanked from me; having the one you sincerely love leave and abandon you is the most excruciating feeling I’ve felt in my entire life! When a relationship is so bonded and close it means so much…. a connection…. two souls sharing life together… living, loving, caring, good, bad, hard, and easy…. everything for everyday of their lives.

Baby, I can’t say it in words… you really my everything. How could something beautiful be so easy to walk away from and leave us behind? I need you in my life you are my “Apple Filling”!

I’ll miss everything about you until the day we are reunited… if that day is ever planed in our future. I love You Erin!

It was my sweetheart’s sister’s wedding in Louisiana, went to my first huge casino and also purchased the amazing new wonder called an iPod Touch! It was great, besides the exhaustive drive there and back, but overall it just rocked! The wedding was the showcase for the entire weekend; with so much pressing time to prep and prepare things were on fire. Not to mention I was able to dress-up myself in my first suit and look handsomely sharp for my sweetheart! A nice set of photos have been compiled for all to view if they care to see: Wedding Photos.

I’m drifting off while sitting here in my college algebra class… all these varibles and numbers are just twisting my mind around into a cyclone! It’s actually quite impressive how famous mathmeticians formulated such complex equations to determine astounding aspects in life: energy, mass, gravity, light speed, etc.

I can only dream of one day becoming so insightful to such a level to break down the physics that bind us to our world and have an amazing equation that will be world famous!

Dreams do come true, just look, I’ve found my one and only love for life!!

A slight blink of the eye and you can miss everything. Life doesn’t stop and it keeps chugging away. I’ve been extremely tied up with my agenda that I hardly get any free time for what I’d like to be doing. I do hope all this hard work will pay off in my future. As for school I’m doing quite well I believe, work has pushed me up ion the ranks, and well personal lifestyle could use more attention and TLC.

I screwed up the other night… I seem to screw up from time to time. I don’t do it intentionally just idiotically. Is it because I’m a male or just a r-tard? I need to whip myself back into shape… mentally and physically. Over the year s I’ve let things go as if I never cared. Now that I do, I clearly see what I’ve missed in life and wish to achieve!

My sweetheart has been my savior through this past couple years; she means the world, universe, and unknown to me! She guides me on a good path to appreciate lie and love. Without her I sincerely feel I’m a zero. Which brings me to say, Easter is rounding the corner and I picked up a small basket with a bunny and candies to bring home to her last night. I do think it’s the small deeds, such as that, that touch her heart with love.

I was too tied up with classes and my own agenda to post quick Valentine wishes. I took my sweetheart out to dinner then we came home and watched a movie. Simple loving things that matter; and, we are going to set up plans to go either out to Daytona Beach for the drag car races or Tampa for the iMAX viewing of Ghost Rider.

YES! I don’t even think it was a full two weeks… yet in my heart and soul it felt like an eternity. I have never missed a companion so much as I did for Erin during the past holidays. She barged through the door like a “SWAT” member to instantly embrace one another with a sweet hug of pure affection. It was the best moment of regathering that I can recall. Her arms were wrapped around me, as I held her so tightly making me feel so released of all my worrying stresses.

She is my love, the one and only I need! I love you Erin.

It’s time to start a fresh new start all over! I think the best resolution this year would be to focus on past resolutions that weren’t accomplished! Along with more love for everyone… especially my significant other. So be safe everyone and have a great NEW YEAR!

The girl I’ve spent nearly everyday with for the past two years is out on her holiday family vacation. She has been gone since December 24th… only two days. Although, it feels like an eternity to my heart that is missing her so dearly. I listen to her music when driving to and from work and all I do is ball with tears like a big cry-baby! I never knew how loved truly felt before, now I most certainly do!

Honey while you’re out there having fun and spending time with your family please know that someone back home is missing you so much… I really find it excruciatingly hard to wait until the time I can hug and kiss you again. It’s so true how you realize how good of something you have when it is gone. Erin, you’re my special little sweet angel, I need you and miss you so badly; please make it home safe to me soon!

It’s that time of year again! Eating all sorts of great home cooked food with family and loved ones. All I can seem to think about though is the unfortunate people that have nothing nor family to share the holidays with. It’s a harsh and cruel cold feeling. If by some chance, anyone has time or tender love and caring in their heart can you please you go donate or dedicate some time to help the needy? They would really care and I am sure it would make their day.

I too am going to see what I can do for right here in my community. I was thinking about going to Boston Market and seeing if they would match me on my purchase amount of food so that I could go around and feed some people.

Just do something and remember they’re only human also!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Tensions have been peaking recently with one main dilemma — Insurance company, with corporate crap, that irks me; it’s just a load of games and truly not in the victims’ best interest of an outcome. So it seems to me…

job…. Job… and JOB!
Yes, I have to apply myself in “good faith” for the insurance company; proving my lack of abilities due to my injury from work last year. I feel like a questioned criminal; and, I’m the one suffering with pain. Wonderful corporate controlled world we live in…

School is Cool!
English Composition research appear date gaining some very quick speed on me; I will be working grudgingly on this over the up coming weekend. I know that my topic of choice is broad enough it’s just a mater of piecing it all together in a fashionable and understandable manner.

Games!
Yes I do enjoy my gaming and I hope to be 80 years old one day with a controller stuck in my hands, fragging it up. Gears of War released recently and I’m hooked on this next-gen digital drug! The campaign is griping, online is addicting, and overall it just blows anything away! EPIC did an amazing job with this game… and all I do, besides drop my jaw and drool, is contemplate if games can get better than this??? Time will tell.

Love! Romance for Sweetheart!
Yes, my baby girl, Erin, is my truly and loving one. I constantly dream of us in our house, kids, everything that lovers do! This woman is simply amazing to me; she brings so much joy and happiness into my heart. I’m doing my best to love, please, and keep her so happy. I really look forward to the days when we graduate and have degrees; then, we can obtain respectable jobs in good fields. Christmas is going to be lonely without her this year; hopefully it’ll only be our only Christmas apart. She better stay warm and safe.

I am beginning to have those stomach knots all over again with my love of almost two years now. We have been through a lot together, and it only seems like our bond is growing ever so stronger. College classes, fun trips, and first-time foods have all been shared between us; it is just amazing how much we appreciate one another. No, we aren’t perfect, and I’m quite glad we aren’t; life would be extremely dull if that was the case. However, with our arguments we only come back stronger and more caring towards one another. I, personally, despise fighting in any shape or form, because it usually leaves nasty remarks, saddened feelings, and a lost hope. Well, we do argue (doesn’t everyone?) and it doesn’t last very long, especially that our fights are mainly over really small things nuisances.

After all is said and done… we realize just how precious we are to one another. I need her and she needs me. In my heart I see this woman standing next to me in her gorgeous white gown, dazzling blue eyes, and sparkling smile saying our vows. I want her to be my wife. Will she say, “Yes, I do” when I drop the big heart stopping question? I know for sure that when I do ask it will be very sporadic and at the utmost perfect time!

Erin, everyday I’m with you… I sincerely feel as if I fall silly in love all over again; never leave my side, never leave me, let us be forever; cause I need you.

Usually sequels hardly ever live up to their original Saw’s debut; yet, in this case with the sick demonic flick of this trilogy (will there be a IV?) all three have been quite up to par with its first movie! Although from such the crazy twist we never expected in the first one… Jigsaw getting up off the ground, after laying there throughout he whole ordeal, was just a wow. So, since then we’ve all been anticipating these absurd twists of games and how it all pans out. I’ve not once guessed either Saw 2 nor Saw 3’s endings; they were just unbelievable.

Luckily for me, having a loving sweet girl - my sweetheart, she treated us out tonight to the movie. We both were really excited about seeing it. It was crowded; especially for such a small city we live in too. We arrived about 30 minutes early and claimed stake on two perfect seats. Roughly, at about 15 minutes before show time I went ot the snack counter and got the famous movie theater buttered popcorn and large cokes. Just within that short span of going to the snack vendors and getting back the Saw III section had quickly began to fill up… Lights dimmed, surround speakers spasmed to life with screaming, and the full room grew silent; it was time for some thrilling horror!

I won’t spoil one minute of this movie. All I have to say is it was just as gruesome as previous iterations, and this ending will leave you going “NO WAY” all over again.

It’s so lonely here without you; it sucks not having you around to hold, snuggle and cuddle with throughout the night. You really do make me feel so worth my existence in this strange world. I’m not perfect… I even know I can be a serious piece of poo from time to time, but above all that I love you Erin Mire. I try so hard to be everything you need and want. I want to make you the happiest woman in life. I will do anything you ever ask of me.

Just understand how I feel sometimes too, especially right now; I’m really scared. I don’t think I never felt this scared, well, or at least I can’t remember I did. You are the one I need by my side to hold my hand and lean on me. Your my true love that comes only once in a lifetime; because, the rest is just foolish games with shallow securities and hurtful times.

I need you baby, I need you forever.

Well guess I need to play catch up with myself…
I’ve been intrigued by all sorts of new gadgets, software, and 360 games so let me first run out my list of Toys I Want!

Software
• Disco App

Gadgets

• Canon 400D
• Apple 80Gb iPod

Games

• Rainbow Six: Vegas
• Gears of War
• Halo 3 (Of course)

It’s all just too much really; specially on my budget. Not to mention the temptation MacZOT brings!! Yea I’m a sucker I know… tell me, go on. Bet you won’t tell me to my face though now will you?

What else? Ummm… me and Erin are still together, and loving ever so more to each other. This will be the woman I marry. We both are struggling right now to deal with school and everyday living; though, we know it is all for the better of our futures. Sacrifice now to prosper later. Ahhh! My mom just got remarried, and she has really started getting back in the groove of life. Though I’m pretty sure me moving back out on my own helped her gain some peace of mind as well. I’m just too much too handle I believe. So far from what I’ve heard my mom is very happy and well taken care of with this new relationship; I just really hope that she is happy because she suffered for far too long. I love you mom!

Yes, I do reckon that wraps up a lot of things not covered in my life recently. School is good; I scored a 100% on my last Technology quiz. English is very demanding when done proper, though it is a great learning experience for me. Math is fun… weird and very confusing, but fun. It just amazes me how numbers can be manipulated in so many ways! Insane. I’ll let everyone know my last math test score tomorrow when I get it… cross your fingers.