Recently my body feels so dragged out and tired… just exhausted so as to a drone doing only what must be done to survive and keep going. Is it stresses or possible depressions of some sort? My girl actually made an awesome point last night by asking, “Do you ever feeling like you are just going through the motions of life without purpose?” and then as I sit here contemplating it I really wonder…

This past week has been very enjoyable! A week’s long vacation doing as I pleased, how I pleased! It was much needed and soothing to the stresses I was dealing with. Funny, however though, the week passed all too quickly; starting back tomorrow I will be returning to work on a beautiful Sunday.

I think overall throughout the week I have discovered a deep yearning for success in life; I wish to be someone important and making changes in lives; seeking enlightenment and wisdom from all possible angles. I want to be powerful yet humble and caring, brilliant but inclined to teach and share knowledge!

Overall I want to really really really want to know graphic design and tap the creative side out of me (is that even possible?)

Sometimes it feels like I don’t have the time to dedicate to such tasks that interest me the most, but then that only feels like a shallow excuse to not achieve the most overall.

Well, for anyone that may even care… sorry for my extreme absence on the blog spot that I dubbed “FreakyTJ” and may we all hope that more time may be dedicated to it. Yes, I am well aware I have stated I will do more, but then that battle of time to accomplish such a task is tossed aside!

Love…
Trust….
Emotions……

All have felt like they’ve now been yanked from me; having the one you sincerely love leave and abandon you is the most excruciating feeling I’ve felt in my entire life! When a relationship is so bonded and close it means so much…. a connection…. two souls sharing life together… living, loving, caring, good, bad, hard, and easy…. everything for everyday of their lives.

Baby, I can’t say it in words… you really my everything. How could something beautiful be so easy to walk away from and leave us behind? I need you in my life you are my “Apple Filling”!

I’ll miss everything about you until the day we are reunited… if that day is ever planed in our future. I love You Erin!

It was my sweetheart’s sister’s wedding in Louisiana, went to my first huge casino and also purchased the amazing new wonder called an iPod Touch! It was great, besides the exhaustive drive there and back, but overall it just rocked! The wedding was the showcase for the entire weekend; with so much pressing time to prep and prepare things were on fire. Not to mention I was able to dress-up myself in my first suit and look handsomely sharp for my sweetheart! A nice set of photos have been compiled for all to view if they care to see: Wedding Photos.

Life , when contemplated on has some quite significant impact on life. History has shaped our existence to where we are now and where we might even go…. yet is it possibly true history could repeat itself?

Bewilderment seems to consume my thoughts when sitting in my Humanities class; it’s amazement mixed with bore. Yet… somehow I am drwan to its’ powerful force of art, dominance, and presence.

is there solid answers, or all just assumptions and endless drifts of “what-ifs”…

I’m drifting off while sitting here in my college algebra class… all these varibles and numbers are just twisting my mind around into a cyclone! It’s actually quite impressive how famous mathmeticians formulated such complex equations to determine astounding aspects in life: energy, mass, gravity, light speed, etc.

I can only dream of one day becoming so insightful to such a level to break down the physics that bind us to our world and have an amazing equation that will be world famous!

Dreams do come true, just look, I’ve found my one and only love for life!!

This contest will literally astound you! Sponsored and offered by Xbox 360 Fanboy:

50″ Plasma 1080P TV
Xbox 360 Elite
Bose Surround System

Talk about an amazing god-like set-up! I could game in style with that goodness! Truthfully, if I was ever so lucky to be “The One” to win that prize package I just might fall out in a coma!

Yes! Unbelievable YES! My girl and I are now very proud owners of a brand new 2007 Hyundai Sonata Platinum Edition! We took a run though travel ride up to Goose Creek, SC then right back home so that we could both work today.

This trip started at 6pm Thursday, only because of the lack of intelligence with Bank of America for sending our package to the wrong address… which this trip was supposed to begin around 2pm… well after arriving in Goose Creek around 11:30pm we then get partially lost due to some mixed up directions. After feeling way off path I call up the most generous and great people that were selling us the car to guide us to their location. After back-tracking a few miles and getting on the right direction we we’re there in about 10 minutes. I was floored as the garage door lifted to reveal the car we were about to purchase… I was literally speechless and just amazed too be so lucky to have these wonderful people to sell me this amazing car to help us out!

All I can say is a huge THANK YOU to Mr. & Mrs. Senetto!

I found my gem hiding on eBay; after dealing with a local degrading dealership I now will own a NEW 2007 car! Hopefully have it picked up on Thursday!

After a long summer of no classes Fall is here and so is the Fall term for college! I’m so ready for another great semester of expanding my brain and knowledge. Just more college credit hours to go toward my major in education; as well as, building a solid foundation for my future! The only downside of today is…. Bioshock releases for the 360 and PC! So, I’ll just have to wait until I get home this after noon to play; although, I may even have to wait until 9PM when my sweetheart gets back from her class, because she too wanted to play through the game with me!

Life is good for those whom try!

It really irks me when huge business look down on the consumer; all they care about is their very own best interests! I’ve been put into a situation where I feel I can’t win, been lied to, and taken advantage of! All that from attempting to purchase a new car. Then, to top off the entire situation, to even try to obtain legal help I’d have to pay for a lawyer, which is understandable, but next to impossible being that all my money I had went for the down-payment on the car.

I really hate this stress and worry it is bringing to my life. Why is life so difficult sometimes; especially for the ones that are busting their asses to achieve a respectable status in life’s twisted tides!

I will triumph above this ordeal, for I have over-come other very hard times previously. So, for all you scoundrel pieces of poo corporations you can go bankrupt for all I care and lose every asset you may “think” you possess!

Pricks….

I think I am?
I’m referring to the ‘07 Fall term of college! I’m excited because my past two semester have rocked and I’ve enjoyed every hour spent in school learning and expanding my intellect. I do, however, question the integrity and benefit of school as for a long term goal of success. Will obtaining a degree push me forward in the growing world of careers and put me in a place I feel secure, compensated, and happy? I surely hope so, Do any otehr fellow college students out there feel this same dispair of “not knowing”?

Chime in with a comment from anyone out there letting me know… whether from CFCC or elsewhere in the world of college!

As my birthday crept on by this past Saturday we set up some simple plans of an going out to dinner at a new local restaurant, catching a movie and sitting down at the ice-cream shop. Eating at Backyard Burger was a real treat for two reason: first it was a new restaurant to us both and second it was sinfully delicious! After leaving the restaurant we drove down the street to decide between Transformers or 1408… decisions decision. I chose Transformers. I must say that movie is great! The action, comedy, story, and plot are all fine tuned and keep the movie intriguing from beginning to end; I highly suggest this flick for anyone skeptical on watching it.

It’s been very hectic with all sorts of dilemmas I’ve had to overcome: buying a car, job changes, school beginning to start, and loving a sweet girl named Erin.

Yes, I’ve been dealing with life head on and as best as I can. I’m doing quite well I believe, or so I tend to think. It has just been super hectic with all sorts of things to do and keep maintained. I’m all anticipating the Fall ‘07 term to begin, but at the same time stressed thinking of how to juggle it and the job. All shall be well, hopefully :)

is there any random reader still visiting?

I recently found out that through my company I was able to secure a Helio Ocean phone with a great discount… so naturally I took the plunge and I must say I’m very impressed with the device model I chose as well the service! The phone itself is loaded with several amazing features, GPS, 2MP camera, dual slider for keypad or QWERTY keys, web, email, plus a unique “Buddy Beacon” application that allows you to add fellow Helio friends and locate them through GPS on a map!

I know I’ve unfortunately been out of the times without having a cellphone for quite some time now, but now I’m back in the game and sincerely impressed with what there is to toy with!

I think I’ve found the most simplistic method for sharing my massive mp3 library online and locally! Not only is it simple to set-up and get running, but it is very clean and sleek. I’ve created a “guest” user to browse my 80+ gigs of music all tagged, organized, and filed anally. Enjoy…

iTunes RSS
user - guest
password - passw0rd (a numerical zero not a o)

If I see too much bandwidth being used it will be throttled!

Also check out MyTunesRSS, which is waht could make this amazing feat possible!

Life can be very good! I have been promoted at my job and I’m moving to another store; although I’m not too happy about the part of moving to another store I am ecstatic about the promotion! Thank you Jeff & Kevin!!! It’s a great feeling to have my hard work being recognized and appreciated.

This past semester which ended on May 4th went great and I pulled away with 2 As and a B! I look forward to enrolling into Fall term for another slew of classes to tackle and leave with great grades.

My sweetheart is still as beautiful and amazing since the first day I laid eyes on her face. She believes in me and her positive beliefs push me through all the hard-ships to succeed and shine through; I love you sweetheart.

Ahh, gaming… what’s new? HALO 3!!! The beta dropped on the lucky people that were in the know of how to get in. crackdown was my ticket. I’m slightly impressed, but I am awaiting some more finalized details of content, total online maps, modes, new features, and video controls. Although it does look much more purtier over Halo 2, it needs to offer more… in my opinion.

I am selling my motorcycle, I know I’m going to miss it badly; and, I’m hunting for a vehicle I can afford and trust for reliability. I wish I could keep my zoom zoom toy, but it’s just not feasible for transportation, it’s great on gas, but when if it rains I can’t show up to work looking like a drowned rat! Hopefully eBay will be my savior in the hunt for a good car that I can depend on.

Well… peace out!

I’m curious as to what most blog readers enjoy reading about? I suppose it can vary widely because everyone has their own preferences. I just would like ot have a steady stream of readers seeing my thoughts. Am I not interesting enough? Are my writings just non-sense that most people don’t care to waste time reading? I’m not looking for celebrity status, but just a faithful crowd that drive me towrite more frequently and pressure me to give them content they enjoy.

I do know I’ve been extremely dedicated to work and school which explains my lack of writings. Which I might add has been going quite smoothly. I’ve put a lot of dedication into both equally well to progress and advance. Life can be good, as long as you see that way. Yet, remember, that although things may seem down and outright rock bottom - things could always be much worse!

On a final note me and my sweetheart Erin are still together! This has been thee best relationship so far. We are so different yet so similar and keep each other going. I love this woman; and one day I do wish to take her hand to the alter for a unity bond for life.

A slight blink of the eye and you can miss everything. Life doesn’t stop and it keeps chugging away. I’ve been extremely tied up with my agenda that I hardly get any free time for what I’d like to be doing. I do hope all this hard work will pay off in my future. As for school I’m doing quite well I believe, work has pushed me up ion the ranks, and well personal lifestyle could use more attention and TLC.

I screwed up the other night… I seem to screw up from time to time. I don’t do it intentionally just idiotically. Is it because I’m a male or just a r-tard? I need to whip myself back into shape… mentally and physically. Over the year s I’ve let things go as if I never cared. Now that I do, I clearly see what I’ve missed in life and wish to achieve!

My sweetheart has been my savior through this past couple years; she means the world, universe, and unknown to me! She guides me on a good path to appreciate lie and love. Without her I sincerely feel I’m a zero. Which brings me to say, Easter is rounding the corner and I picked up a small basket with a bunny and candies to bring home to her last night. I do think it’s the small deeds, such as that, that touch her heart with love.

After the much dragged out and miserable injury from my previous job I was able to luckily be hired at my local EBGames/Gamestop! After proving myself and showing integrity since December I’ve landed a promotion into the next branch up to a Senior GA. I’m, in short, a manager; when no other manger is on duty, I’m in charge :)

Thank you for the chance and opportunity because it means a great deal to me. Now to push to the top!!